Ambulance, Looking Backward

Forever amazing range
Of things you can’t influence,
Much less direct and control,

Until you realize, wait,
That’s everything. So from where
Do you get the sensation

You’re interacting with things
That are responding to you?
And where is causation’s edge,

The horizon beyond which
You recognize your absence?
Somehow, some seem to do just

Fine with proprioception
And yet still feel their impact,
The strength of their decisions,

Radiates around the world.
Others sweat their social selves
But see destiny past that.

Almost all feel some small sphere
Of activity to be
Altered or governed by them.

Presumably, the body
Requires this for survival,
But it’s not your survival.