To Begin With

It’s not the addiction, it’s the habit
Of behaving with an intent to change,

To transform as quickly as possible
By initiating action, whether

That action involves risk-taking, gaming,
Self-alteration, faith, stimulation,

Or violence on behalf of a cause,
A flag, or a name. It’s just the habit

Of reaching for whatever has changed things,
You’ve been told, or remember, in the past,

Wanting, as fast as possible, to change.
It’s not which addiction. It’s addicting,

To do anything to transform again
And again change everything, to begin.